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4:26 am,
sleep,
what's that?
tossing around
thinking about Directive 10-289
thoughts of walking off into the dark abyss, living amongst nature in a world that punishes achievers
thinking about Robin Hood, heard someone mention him the other day
"Such a good message"
Is it? Maybe when considering the corruption of aristocracy
How about now? Is it okay to take from America's achievers and give it
and love, you are what you love
thinking about Dalyce,
what have I loved?
thinking about patterns,
mental patterns,
I loved him for his mind,
His mental capacity,
His quickwitted humor,
his love for his music,
oh how I wish I could describe in words good enough the extent for my love for his love for his music,
There's nothing I love more in a human being than to see them living their passion, bringing it to life through the art of creation ***
He loved her,
what is she?
We know what is she,
A shelly mess.
You are what you love.
So what must be he?
A shellier mess,
Lacking ability to love,
Capable only of destruction,
Destruction of that which he sees beautiful in others,
thinking about how much my life has changed,
is changing,
what's the point in insomnia when you're not on drugs?
No, no,
that's old talk, that's looking through past lens
Thinking about friends here,
Thinking about him,
"I'm a relativist, I feel like absolutism is so close minded."
Close minded? I used to think this to be a shortcoming,
And there's no doubting that it can be,
The thing with relativism is,
And "open minded"
Is that everyone preaches it,
how easy it is to preach,
yet know one lives by it.
Is it relative that you get your college education?
Is it relative that I refrain from taking a sledgehammer to your dog?
Is it relative that your roommate refrain from shitting all over your balls?
Yeah, tell me some more about your relativist philosophy.
He's such a whiner.
Is it the world's obligation to please him?
I don't think so.
Why are we friends?
We understand each other,
Our insecurity is the same,
What the fuck kind of friendship is that?
I hope no one finds this
that would be awful
No, why do I say that?
I should be honest.
Right now I'm thinking about philogy,
Tolkien was a philogist, I didn;'t know this.
I want to reread Roverendom.
I want to watch Contact.
It had such a good message, once stripped of its mainstream hollywood tendencies
Why doesn't C-Street open for another two hours?
I'm not sleeping tonight.
Bye.

*** this poem sucks, I'm glad I no longer try to write poetry but honestly, this line still resonates with me -- I still feel this way, and this sentiment is growing, and I am so happy that I am attracting more and more creative, passionate persons into my life. Nothing makes me happier than to see someone living out their passions to the fullest.